My favorite moment, from my favorite movie…
In It’s a Wonderful Life, George Bailey is about to set sail, literally and figuratively, pursuing his dreams of travel and adventure and pursuit of all that lies outside the little town of Bedford Falls. After his father suddenly passes away, and George delays his trip to tie up some loose ends at the Building & Loan (the family business, a mortgage company that tries to help families through tough times), the Board of Directors informs George that, unless he stays on as Executive Secretary, Mr. Potter will take over and dismantle the business. In that single moment, George’s eyes show a man who instantly knows that his lifelong dreams will remain just that: dreams.
I absolutely love this movie. Many people think of it as just a nice holiday classic, but I’ve come to identify with George and his struggle between dreams and responsibility. When George sets aside his hopes and dreams, to do what he knows others need him to do, it takes an angel (and visions of what everyone’s life would be like without him) to realize just how wonderful a life spent serving others really is.
In my own version of this story, I once had to make a choice between two colleges, with the resulting choice pointing me towards (what I hope has been) a life spent putting the needs and concerns of others ahead of my own. And, while I certainly won’t claim to be shoving Mother Teresa off her pedestal, I believe God has used those years since that fateful plunge to better the lives of many children, youth, and families, in many countries.
Sometimes, we carry around dreams and hopes for how our lives might play out, only to find that the world needs us to take on other roles. Every Christmas pageant needs a Mary and a Joseph, but they need a bunch of shepherds, too. The past few years, as I’ve paused from what I imagined would be a career in youth & family ministry, God has had me playing shepherd. My current resume has a lot more about my work with special-needs kids and, lately, little kids, than my career aspirations of middle- & high-school church mininstry.
The funny thing is, I’m beginning to see how the world might need me in those roles, more than it needs another youth ministry wannabe. The power of just being a stable male in a kid’s life cannot be overstated, especially in our divorce-weary culture. And, for some time now, I’ve longed to see more churches truly raising up life-long disciples, rather than another wave of consumers that think church is cool (until it gets boring, that is…). The special-needs thing is an area that I’ve sort of fallen into ass-backwards, but have had the chance to acquire skills & experience that can really help a lot of frustrated parents out.
So, as I continue with my plan to board that cattle ship to Europe, then get my engineering degree from the state college, I’m hearing God suggest to me that it just might be OK to stick around and run the Bailey Bros. Building & Loan instead. Of course, sometimes letting go of our dreams is just what needs to happen before we can be really good at them, so I’m going to keep heading in the direction I feel He’s been leading me for some time.
At any rate, I’m still waiting for someone to set me up with Donna Reed…