Phil’s last letter written last May.

If you’re reading this on this day, that means I was taken home, after a pretty incredible few days, following a pretty incredible few years; not ones I would have scripted for myself, but ones where I saw the best come out in others (and maybe myself too). If this trial was for people to see all that in each other, and in God himself…not a waste.

I only wish I had taken more chances to let my friends and family know how much I really love them. Yeah, I probably would have had to let somebody see me cry once in awhile, but you all deserve that much at least. You can know now as I tell you how much I love you, my eyes are anything but dry…but enough about me.

Here’s what you’re going to do to remember my life: Live yours.

A fear-filled life is not much of a life at all…and don’t wait for permission to see the world. If that means you go somewhere, great.  If it means you are willing to listen to someone else’s words, before sharing your own, even better.  

And, be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, and faithful in prayer. It might not always seem fun, but God IS going somewhere with all of this. Don’t try to ignore Him. He’ll cross your path again eventually. Why waste a minute living a non-full life.

I’ve tried to live by the rules…many of them were pretty stupid, but the occasional one stuck….make no major decisions just for the money. Put people before programs, compassion before agenda, and love before critique. 

Thanks for being the most incredible family and friends anyone could ever hope for, even if it was for a short time. Don’t be sad because I’m gone. Go back and look at the pictures from the parties and fun times we had together, and laugh. Tears can wait for a sad day. I’m not the least bit sad about the times I had with each of you.

I’d like to say so much more, but we’re at the end.

So, with much love,


Brian again. Just in case there is someone within traveling distance and does not use Facebook. Phil’s memorial service is this Saturday March 17 at 3pm. Lynden Christian High School Performing Arts Auditorium. 417 Lyncs Drive, Lynden WA, 98264.

Brian again, Phil went home this afternoon. I’m sure he talked to God and was allowed to wait until his pastor had a chance to pray, because that’s what happened.

For those wonderful friends who are looking to this site for updates.
This is Brian MacKay, just one of the many, many people who have been tremendously blessed by Phil throughout the years. We are at the place that everyone, including Phil, were hoping we would not be at. As of this writing, Phil is resting with meds controlling pain and seizures. The prognosis is that he will leave us this weekend, although God is the decider of that. Please know, and I’ve personally heard him say this, he loves you all and has been thankful of you all for being a part of his life. We will update this as events happen in the near future.

When last I left you… (more…)

When last I left you… (more…)

In what has become an annual holiday tradition here on the beach: it gives me great pleasure to present to you the 2nd grade responses(courtesy of the students of a friend of mine) to urgent situation described here

Poor Mrs. V! She has to cook Thanksgiving dinner, and she’s never cooked a turkey before! So she turned to some experts to help her out—her second grade class. They generously shared their recipes for how to cook a turkey dinner! (more…)